Now they're losers, weirdos, and potential monsters.

(One of Michael's terms for participating in this story was that I not include his last name or exact age, only that he's on the older end of the millennial spectrum.) The woman, still petting the beagle, started teasing Michael.

She'd seen him with his dog at a party a few weeks back.

I've also been laboring to determine the exact relationship between the person in front of me and the website he runs. "I don't know," Michael says again, then looks me in the eye. "MICHAEL FIRST discovered in his final year at a small liberal arts college in western Massachusetts, where he studied film.

For several weeks, I'd checked in on almost daily, and much of what I read there was blithely misogynistic—nothing as extreme as what Rodger posted, but pretty dark. Four years prior, he'd arrived anticipating, like so many, a fresh start with dating and sex.

He frequently went off the record or sidestepped answering me directly. It's late, the sun has set, and we're both exhausted.

He emphasized that he'd never liked the "incel" idea in the first place ("It's just a dumb term") and that he no longer even thinks of himself as love-shy. Michael is tired because, on and off for more than 24 hours, he's been stitching together a story he rarely tells in full, even to those closest to him.His one high school girlfriend, with whom he'd lost his virginity, completely drove their relationship."She started kissing me," Michael recalls, obviously still a little proud.Other users call themselves "incels," meaning "involuntary celibates," or "Forever Alone," which requires no explanation.They use the site as an advice depot, confessional, and water cooler, complaining frequently about the impossibility of making themselves understood by "normies" or "noncels."Michael has sunk countless hours into the site. But offline, he almost never mentions it—much less that he hasn't dated anyone since he was 17, and has had sex just once in the decade-plus since.Start envisioning a world where WOMEN FEAR YOU." Michael has nothing but scorn for Rodger, not just because of his senseless, horrific crimes, but also because his behavior demonizes chronically celibate men.